11 November 2009

number 27



number 27 off the list and I can't help but feel that time is running out. in exactly one month, I will be 39. I wish I could say that I'm okay with turning 39. but I am not. I am also not okay with heights. actually, I'm horribly afraid of heights. which is sort of why I put number 27 on the list. but also, I love bridges. much as I fear heights, I am in love with bridges. yesterday, when the sun finally came out, I knew what had to be done. ward dropped the kids off at school and off we went.



one foot in front of the other is how I did it. and handrails. the handrails helped. I will admit to gripping the handrails all the way there. well, and all the way back. I will also admit to screaming every single time a semi-truck whooshed past and caused the bridge to buckle. but I did step outside my own completely terrified state long enough to look down at the water, to ooh and aah over the city skyline and the spectacular structure that is the st. johns bridge. with the sun shining on my face and the wind whipping my hair, I crossed the st. johns bridge. and as terrified as I was, I would do it again. again and again.

22 comments:

  1. good for you! way to conquer your fears. i have a weird thing about bridges, too. i love them but when i'm driving over them a feel a little nervous. don't know what that's about! anyway, well done!

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  2. That is awesome. Congratulations!

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  3. way to go!! and you got an excellent pola out of it, too.

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  4. yay! I love that bridge, it's definitely one of the prettiest anywhere. did you get a chance to hang out at the park underneath?

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  5. congratulations, and very well done, friend.

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  6. awesome! so damn awesome!

    rock on!

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  7. St. Johns is my favorite. I've been meaning to do the same (so far, only have a pic through the windshield. Way to overcome the fear. Im always wanting to take pictures of interesting details on statues but am deathly afraid of them (my fear is probably weirder, I know).

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  8. bravery has such a lovely payoff.

    good on you oh mistress of the bridge.

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  9. This is an amazing photo. What an awesome accomplishment!

    lululetty.blogspot.com

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  10. hey andrea! i just wrote my own list on my blog, your's being my inspiration for it! congratulations on triumphing over your fear :)

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  11. you did it! and it sounds like it was amazing. your description of screaming reminded me of when i walked across the rio grande just outside of taos, nm. i think i crawled half way....
    ;)

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  12. Hooray!

    Delurking (after ages) to say that I turned 39 just a little bit ago, and also wished I was more ok with it than I was. But, not quite two months later, I will tell you that it's really no different than 38. And most of the time, I am too busy to even think about it :)

    (Btw, I'm jenijen, but the typepad ID calls me by some long string of numbers for some reason.)

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  13. good job!!!!
    and from the looks of the picture, totally worth it :)
    somebody else said it here, and i agree, you are an inspiration. in more ways than one.
    thank you.

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  14. I'm so proud of you, my sister friend! But you already know this. : )
    Hugs!

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  15. congratulations to you! i've got some height issues of my own, and my palms almost began to sweat when i read your description of the trucks wooshing past. but it feels so good to push just a bit like that, doesn't it? good for you!

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  16. Congratulations - an accomplishment not to be underestimated! You are a brave, brave woman...

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  17. hurray. congrats on doing something that scares you and doing it so well :)

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  18. that's awesome! i don't know why it never occurred to me that you could possibly walk across that bridge. not too sure about walking on it with semis though.

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  19. I walked across the Golden Gate Bridge earlier this year and I have a horrible fear of heights. It really was one foot in front of the other for me. I'm glad I did it though:) Awesome job conquering your fears:)

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