17 February 2019


the sightseer

three places I would please like to be magically transported to right now:

the small balcony of a seventh floor apartment in chinatown
powell's books, third floor, the pearl room, photography section
the window seat of the coast starlight, traveling south from portland to san francisco

16 February 2019


things I tried really, really hard not to think about today because it was saturday and the clouds were puffy and white and for once, we were out in it and there was cake with pink frosting waiting for us at home:

health insurance

14 February 2019


boys I have loved:

cute boy met while on vacation down in florida in 1982 whose name I can't remember
ward, forever

13 February 2019

12 February 2019


vinyl on heavy, heavy rotation this week:

miles davis: kind of blue
stevie wonder: music of my mind
aretha franklin: I never loved a man (the way I love you)

11 February 2019


words and phrases recently heard while watching british period films that I'd very much like to work into my own vernacular:

"come take the night air with me"
"tinker's cuss"
"I have spoken, all depart"

10 February 2019


things I'm doing to get through february:

reading books
peeling oranges
lighting candles
taking walks
baking cakes
eating cakes

09 February 2019


three boards for me today, three:

movement as art

08 February 2019


photographs I did not take:

the way he looked at me this morning
the light on the bed this afternoon
the pink skies tonight

07 February 2019


cotton candy + rollerskating

small pleasures, part four:

cotton candy
warm towels
lightning bugs
train windows
lemon slices
library books
bubble wrap

06 February 2019


yellow tuesday (2)

recently discovered:

cara cara oranges
a secret entrance to the creek
another version of a song I very much like
a german grocery store
hibiscus tea

05 February 2019


lies I have told, part one:

"yes of course I like wine"
"yes of course I like cilantro"
"yes of course I watch game of thrones"

04 February 2019



cameras I have loved:

a polaroid one step, which I don't remember actually owning, just loving, loving to bits and pieces

a pentax K-1000, which I also didn't own, but used while learning the basics of photography in a high school art class-- the numbers and settings thoroughly overwhelmed and confused me but I never forgot how good and heavy and solid and right it felt in my hands

a little black plastic 110, which was the first camera I remember actually owning, and it was a crap camera that took crap pictures but I loved it anyway because it was mine, because it was all I had, and because it went with me on my first trip overseas 

a fairly unremarkable (though trusty) nikon 35mm film point and shoot, which I used to document my angsty city life in the nineties

a canon AE-1 35mm film SLR, which belonged to ward, who occasionally let me shoot with it and every time, all the old high school art class feelings came rushing back, every time

a canon rebel 35mm film SLR, which ward and I bought together and then took turns shooting with on a trip to italy in 1999, and I didn't know it then but this would be the beginning of a legit return to photography and the camera with which I would shoot all of ava and ezra's sweet early childhood days

a canon powershot point and shoot, my first digital camera and the one I used for my very first 365 project back in 2006-2007

a polaroid SX-70, which I fell head over heels crazy in love with the minute it spit out that first dreamy polaroid and surely I have made some of my very best work with this lovely, miraculous piece of machinery

a holga 120N medium format, which I received nearly fifteen years ago and throw in my bag every once in a while because hoo boy when you get it right with the holga, you really get it right and I will never not love this boxy, plastic girl

a nikon D90 35mm DSLR, which was my first digital SLR and she saw me through some pretty monumental personal growth and I will always be grateful for her 

a polaroid automatic 100, which is a lovely beast of a camera that uses the inimitable peel apart film which is just like nothing else in this world, nothing

a canon FTb 35mm film SLR, which I miraculously thrifted ten years ago and wow wow wow this camera makes beautiful photographs and just feels like a big beautiful tank in my hands

a yashica-D medium format TLR, which was generously gifted to me by a workshop student a few years ago and the first time I loaded it with film and shot with it, it felt like home

a canon EOS 5D mark iii, my first full frame camera, which I bought used and immediately tricked out with gorgeous old glass (a nikon 50mm 1.4 lens, originally meant for a nikon film camera) and this camera, this camera is my workhorse, I tell you, my ride or die

a fujifilm X100 original, aka the poor mans leica, which I recently found used and fell instantly, madly in love with as it so beautifully fuses digital with analog and is small and light and perfect for street work and holy wow, the sensor, like none other, she is destined for greatness, I tell you, I feel it, I feel it in my bones

03 February 2019


things I cannot bring myself to do, part two:

delete facebook
watch an entire super bowl
take the christmas tree down

02 February 2019

01 February 2019


on this first day of february:

dishes, washed
plants, watered
walk, taken
piece, not finished
deadline, not met
daffodils, purchased
pajamas, welcomed