18 March 2019

108/365

the sun came up this morning and I got out of bed and I tried again. and, I made it. I made it to the end of another day. tonight:

still a little tired
not nearly as scared
still hopeful
still hopeful
still hopeful

17 March 2019

107/365

sometimes when I sit down at the end of the day to write this list, I just feel lost. lost. when this happens, I try very hard to write down the real things. not the things I think might make for a good list, but the real things. tonight:

I'm tired
I'm scared
I'm hopeful

tomorrow, the sun will rise and we will try again.

16 March 2019

106/365

three things I believe to be worthy investments:

a good book
a good bra
the development of any/all rolls of film

15 March 2019

105/365

six years!

photobooths visited, from earliest personal memory to present:

six flags (st. louis, mo) (1970-something)
woolworths (somewhere in illinois) (1979)
mall drug store (bloomington, il) (multiple visits,1982-1988) 
shopping mall (st. louis, mo) (1984)
k-mart (milford, oh) (multiple visits, 1988-1989)
department store (tokyo, japan) (1989)
ed debevics (chicago, il) (1990)
hickory point mall (decatur, il) (multiple visits, 1989-1991)
forest fair mall (cincinnati, oh) (1991)
pharmor drugs (atlanta, ga) (1992)
six flags (atlanta, ga) (1992)
six flags (st. louis, mo) (1997)
soho gift shop (new york, ny) (multiple visits,1996-1999)
diner (houston, tx) (2001)
star bar (atlanta, ga) (multiple visits, 2003-2006)
city museum (st. louis, mo) (multiple visits, 2003-2007)
company christmas party (atlanta, ga) (2005)
outdoor mall (myrtle beach, sc) (2006)
unknown bar (new york, ny) (2006)
midtown shopping center (new york, ny) (2006) 
mall of georgia (suwanee, ga) (2006)
ace hotel (portland, or) (multiple, I mean muuuuultiple visits, 2007-2014)
little finnegan's (portland, or) (multiple visits, 2007-2012)
rose festival city fair (portland, or) (multiple visits, 2008-2011)
the florida room (portland, or) (multiple visits, 2008-2012)
musee mecanique (san francisco, ca) (2008)
haight street vintage shop (san francisco, ca) (2008)
house of vintage (portland, or) (multiple visits, 2009-2013)
voodoo doughnuts (portland, or) (multiple visits, 2010-2012)
archie mcphee's (seattle, wa) (multiple visits, 2011-2014)
ace hotel (palm springs, ca) (multiple visits, 2012-2014)
rayko photo center (san francisco, ca) (multiple visits, 2012-2015)
west egg cafe (atlanta, ga) (2011)
bon-ton (paris, france) (2013)
novelty shop (port townsend, wa) (2013)
gift shop (savannah, ga) (multiple visits, 2015-2016)
criminal records (atlanta, ga) (multiple visits, 2015-2018)
ace hotel (portland, or) (multiple visits, 2015-2018)
ace hotel (new york, ny) (2015)
the smith (new york, ny) (2016)
cargo (portland, or) (2018)
quimby's book store (chicago, il) (2018)
ace hotel (new orleans, la) (2018)

14 March 2019

104/365

three things about today:

open windows
cats in sunspots
petals on the driveway, like confetti

13 March 2019

103/365

lists I loved to make when I was a kid:

party ideas
what to pack for camp
stories to write
clothes and records to buy
ways to be thinner and prettier

(yes I know-- the last one is sad)

12 March 2019

102/365

things I miss, part one:

dance class
a toddler in the crook of my hip
my twenty-something eyebrows
phone conversations with my mom
a president who reads
the oregon coast
health insurance
idealism

11 March 2019

101/365

a few people I met tonight at my very first silent book club:

lauren, who was reading the joy luck club
erin, who was reading the power
nicholas, who was reading hope never dies
cherie, who was reading her veterans health benefits handbook

p.s. I love silent book club. I love it. I love it.

10 March 2019

100/365

45//45

ways I will celebrate making one hundred lists for one hundred days:

leave confetti in odd places around the house
find (and consume) all hidden candies and chocolates
give myself an imaginary award that can also be worn like a cape 
deliver my acceptance speech in the shower
plan an imaginary train trip across the country
purchase a pretzel at sonic
make more lists

09 March 2019

99/365

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things that are free, part one:

walks
libraries
flowers that grow wild along the highway
those tiny cups of coffee at trader joe's
the swings at the park
window-shopping
people-watching
bike rides

08 March 2019

98/365

photobooth friday!

photographers who have greatly influenced me, photographers I find wildly inspiring:

dorothea lange
mary ellen mark
helen levitt
wendy ewald
carrie mae weems
diane arbus
graciela iturbide
sheila pree bright
vivian maier
elsa dorfman
uta barth
zoe strauss

(happy international women's day, my friends)

07 March 2019

97/365

feverishly working on:

site 
zines
self

february in photographs

february

february

february

february

february

february

february

february

february
(this is what hope looks like)

february

06 March 2019

96/365

things adults once told me, part one:

you should not eat that one thing
you will always struggle with your weight
you will never pull it off

05 March 2019

95/365

things I want to remember about february:

the discovery of cara cara oranges
the discovery of a secret entrance to the creek
geese wandering in suburban shopping mall parking lots
overheard conversations in the lobby of the hotel clermont
long walks in the neighborhood
a love letter to my library
a valentine in my mailbox from my friend gudrun
the look on ezra's face when I gave him a beater covered in pink frosting
the look on ava's face while visiting an excellent college art department
small embroidered daisies found at salvation army for a dollar, promptly added to the gallery wall
double dutch bus vinyl found at an old used book store for three dollars, promptly put into heavy rotation
branches cut from trees in the backyard, brought inside and put in jars
dollar store candles lining my mantle
the inordinate amount of cakes I baked 
the making of my first roux
the saturday night my dad drove all the way from illinois to surprise me
winter hammock swinging
christmas lights up on the front of the house, still