30 November 2019

365/365

the last list

things learned from a year of making lists:

there's power in daily practice
there's power in showing up, even when it's the last thing you want to do
there's power in letting go of what you think something should look like, feel like
there's power in letting go of what you think people want to read, want to see, want to feel
there's power in writing what's honest and real and true
there's power in making something for yourself, just because
there's power in getting out of your own way
there's power in daily practice
there's power in daily practice
there's power in daily practice

listen, I did not expect this project to last more than a month or two. many a project I have left hanging over the last ten years, many a project. why would this one be any different? somewhere along the way, I thought, I will fade. I will flake. 

365 lists later, here I am-- a year documented in the strangest, loveliest and possibly most personal way. if you followed along for any length of time, I thank you. because, surely you grew as tired of these lists as I did. 

I stood in the backyard tonight and took this photograph of the sky and thought, I don't know what's next. except that there will be a zine of these lists. so help me God, there will be a zine. and I will continue to show up here in blogland, the place that everyone says is dead. I don't care. I like it here, I like the quiet. I like that there are no algorithms, no likes, that there's space to move around and make mistakes and try new things. I have no plans of ghosting. certainly, there will be a new project (though I don't know what just yet) and there will be words and photographs (always) and maybe, probably, eventually, more lists. 

always and forever, lists.

46 comments:

  1. I've read every single one. Not every day (I'm not as good at daily practice), but often weekly. And it's been an honor and a privilege. I might do something daily now too, because this has been so inspiring, this documentation of the details, the most important, intimate, small, noble details of daily life. Thank you for your generosity in sharing this, Andrea. It's been an honor and a privilege, truly, to follow along.

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    1. thank you so much for reading along all this time, and for your kind, kind words, and for taking the time to share them with me. xo

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  2. I enjoyed your year of lists though I made no comments I did make lists in a very haphazad way. Thank you for sharing this most intimate project.

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    1. honored you took the time to read, thrilled to hear about your own lists. and, no comments necessary (though I do thank you for this one). xo

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  3. Ps i never grew tired of your lists.

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    1. thank you! and I'm glad you never grew tired of the lists (though I certainly did, ha) xo

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  4. Thank you for your words and your lists!
    I've followed along all year and bookmarked my favourites and keep coming back to them.
    Thank you!

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    1. oh goodness! thank you-- for following along all this time! honored you found a few to bookmark-- honored and humbled. xo

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  5. Congratulations!

    I've played along from (I think) the beginning and never tired of those lists for a second! I will be absolutely there for the zine - it's been a really lovely journey. Thank you <3

    I share your thoughts on blogland. It is definitely my preferred place.

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    1. thank you! thank you so much! means so much to me. and I will keep you posted re: that zine-- can't wait to dig in and work on it.

      here's to blogland, blogland forever. glad to hear I'm not alone! xo

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  6. YOU DID IT. This has been an incredible journey and I'm so lucky to experience it alongside with you. So proud of you, babe. xoxo

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    1. thanks for putting up with me and this list relentlessness all year long. and for always reading (sometimes while sitting in bed next to me, which I found hilarious and charming and dorky, but then, you already knew that. I bet you will read this comment tonight while we are sitting in bed lamenting the end of the break) xoxoxoxoxoxoxxxx

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  7. i'm so sad that the list finally counted 365.
    cus coming here every morning with a cup of coffee was my ritual. i haven't actually mailed you before but i've been years, really years to come to read your words. your words and pictures bright up my days.
    i keep coming back here.
    so keep giving us opportunities to see the world through your words and pictures.
    thank you.

    from japan

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    1. thank you, thank you, thank you-- for reading and for taking the time to tell me. honored (and humbled) to have been a part of your morning ritual. and so deeply honored that you keep coming back too. xo

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    2. p.s. as tired as I got (sometimes) of writing lists, I was really sad to see list 365 roll around (felt sad about it all month long, actually)

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  8. you are the best!!! i love these lists! so many times i realized when reading them that i was feeling something similar ...i don't remember how i discovered your blog but i'm so glad i did!
    gigi

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    1. thank you! thank you so much and that familiar feeling... I believe that's why I write and share (and read too)-- thank you for your kind words! xo

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  9. Read every list - loved every list - never got bored. Bravo!!!

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    1. thank you! thrilled you were never bored (even if I was sometimes, ha)-- thank you for sharing with me! xo

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  10. Loved this project... and reading more of your writing!

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    1. grazie, my friend! ready to dig into another project, ready to do some more friend! I thank you for your encouragement xx

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  11. Yes please, stay here and talk to us☺

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    1. probably not going anywhere anytime soon (so strange to think I've been blogging for almost 15 years, eeep) xo

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  12. I love your lists & have started making lists myself. I check in often. Probably too often :)

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    1. thank you so much-- and I just love hearing that you're making your own lists! xo

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  13. in the "read everyone" ... and did NOT grow tired. Congrats on the accomplishment ... and inner recognition.

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    1. thank you! and I'm so glad you never grew tired of them (even though I did, many times, many many times) (but I'm still so glad I did it) xo

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  14. I loved your lists and they have inspired me to start my own project, too. I can only hope I'll be half as consistent and imaginative as you!

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    1. ah! thank you! thrilled and honored it has inspired you to start your own project! and I thank you for the kind words! xo

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  15. Congratulations! I read each list over the past year and was inspired throughout. I especially loved your end of month reflection lists, which had me thinking of the favorite small and big moments in my own life each month.

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    1. thank you-- thank you so much! the month-end reflection lists might just be what inspired the whole project, now that I think about it. reading through this past year, it's incredibly how many of those small moments I'd already forgotten-- and would be lost forever had I not written them down. that's one list ritual I plan on continuing here. makes me happy, you thinking back on your big and small moments. xo

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  16. I had not been keeping an eye on the number getting closer to 356, and now I feel a bit sad your lists won't be popping up daily anymore - they were a lovely constant in my life, though I'm sure you'll be grateful for the reprieve! Thanks for doing this project!

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    1. list 365 kinda snuck up on me too--it just doesn't seem like I've been doing this a year! and as hard as it was for me some night to sit down and write, I already miss it. thank you so much for reading and for taking the time to tell me! xo

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  17. Thank you so much. I have loved this so much. I am not tired of these lists. Sometimes I have to read them to my husband, who loves list, just to remind him that lists can be art and he should do more of them.

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    1. oh gosh-- thank you, friend. the thought of you reading them out loud to your husband just thrills me. thank you so much for reading and for sharing that little bit of gold with me. xo

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  18. Your lists have been so beautiful and meditative. You are inspiring. Thank you for being here in this place.

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    1. thank you so much for these incredibly kind words-- your comments have been bright spots for me and I cannot tell you how much I appreciate it. xo

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  19. You did it! and so beautifully. I've loved dipping in now and again to read how you're seeing the world through your lists. It's been a delight. Well done.
    xxxx

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    1. thank you, sweet friend! means a lot, coming from you-- miss collaborating with you! xx

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  20. I didn't want the lists to end! Thank you so much for sharing your words and photos. I added books to my to read list and looked up quite a few words thanks to you. Your blog is always such a lovely place to visit.

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  21. I have read all of your lists, as well, and loved them. I've always felt we would be kindred spirits if we ever met, and the lists sealed that sentiment! I also started a list project with a dear friend and it has created a true bond between he and I, so thank you for inspiring me!

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  22. Oh HOW I LOVED THIS PRACTICE. It was just so ... personal. And intimate. And lovely.

    Thank you so much for doing this, truly.

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  23. I loves every One of them. From Italy. I cried at some, laughed at some, felt shy at some and wished I could undertake this project myself. It takes courage. And a leap. Thank you for having leaped for us. I hope we'll join your flight one day :)

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  24. Thank you Andrea. Have been following you from Italy all the way through. You lit up my days. Lucia

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