three years ago

march, three years ago (march, a lifetime ago)

117/365

things we are doing right now, right this second, as I am sitting here writing this:

wishing for cake
wishing for ice cream
talking to our cats
pretending the dishes from dinner are not everywhere
watching videos about liza minelli and lamps
counting the hours, the minutes, the seconds, the nanoseconds til spring break

116/365

songs that are doing it for me today:

peach fuzz (KMD)
ok, meet me underwater (jay som)
beating myself up (cuckoolander)

(thank you for that last one, tracy)

115/365

seen at the thrifts this morning:

a giant plastic golden key
seven televisions
four bamboo parasols
thirteen danielle steele novels
thirty-five pairs of rubber turquoise flip flops
a brass turtle holding a pair of salt and pepper shakers
an unfinished cross stitch piece
jimmy swaggart on vinyl
the shooter's bible, 103rd edition (not even kidding)
a bubblegum pink beanbag, primarily beanless
a sketchbook with the word HELLO scribbled in pencil on every single one of the first thirty-three pages

(yes of course I bought that sketchbook)

114/365

small pleasures, part six:

birthday candles
empty bonne maman jam jars
book stacks
car singing
shower singing
maraschino cherries
motel neon

113/365

things I wish I still had, part one:

my 110 camera
my charlie's angels lunchbox
my OG roller skates with the royal blue stripes
my dad's brown leather maranatha wrist cuff
and all his old adidas shirts from the seventies
my very first pair of brown wooden clogs
also, my twenty-something optimism
and the missing piece from my mom's sterling silver dogwood ring that, unbeknownst to me, broke off whilst I was in a department store dressing room rage, trying on a thousand horrible, miserable bras

112/354

films I am crazy excited to see this year:

the last black man in san francisco
amazing grace
synonyme
us
diane
family
the farewell
booksmart
her smell
satan + adam
little women

111/365

things that can always, always be found in my purse, part one:

lip gloss

reading glasses

confetti

110/365

things to do this spring:

open windows
hoard orange jelly beans
read books under exploding trees 
walk down streets in unknown neighborhoods
color easter eggs til fingers are sufficiently stained
defend marshmallow peeps
defend defend defend
buy records
pick strawberries
steam asparagus
shoot polaroids
share polaroids
pack up car
get out of town
plant things
plant things
I WILL PLANT THINGS

109/365

things that delighted me today:

episodes of shrill
a seat by the window
the very idea of a poppy apocalypse

108/365

the sun came up this morning and I got out of bed and I tried again. and, I made it. I made it to the end of another day. tonight:

still a little tired
not nearly as scared
still hopeful
still hopeful
still hopeful

107/365

sometimes when I sit down at the end of the day to write this list, I just feel lost. lost. when this happens, I try very hard to write down the real things. not the things I think might make for a good list, but the real things. tonight:

I'm tired
I'm scared
I'm hopeful

tomorrow, the sun will rise and we will try again.

106/365

three things I believe to be worthy investments:

a good book
a good bra
the development of any/all rolls of film

105/365

photobooths visited, from earliest personal memory to present:

six flags (st. louis, mo) (1970-something)
woolworths (somewhere in illinois) (1979)
mall drug store (bloomington, il) (multiple visits,1982-1988) 
shopping mall (st. louis, mo) (1984)
k-mart (milford, oh) (multiple visits, 1988-1989)
department store (tokyo, japan) (1989)
ed debevics (chicago, il) (1990)
hickory point mall (decatur, il) (multiple visits, 1989-1991)
forest fair mall (cincinnati, oh) (1991)
pharmor drugs (atlanta, ga) (1992)
six flags (atlanta, ga) (1992)
six flags (st. louis, mo) (1997)
soho gift shop (new york, ny) (multiple visits,1996-1999)
diner (houston, tx) (2001)
star bar (atlanta, ga) (multiple visits, 2003-2006)
city museum (st. louis, mo) (multiple visits, 2003-2007)
company christmas party (atlanta, ga) (2005)
outdoor mall (myrtle beach, sc) (2006)
unknown bar (new york, ny) (2006)
midtown shopping center (new york, ny) (2006) 
mall of georgia (suwanee, ga) (2006)
ace hotel (portland, or) (multiple, I mean muuuuultiple visits, 2007-2014)
little finnegan's (portland, or) (multiple visits, 2007-2012)
rose festival city fair (portland, or) (multiple visits, 2008-2011)
the florida room (portland, or) (multiple visits, 2008-2012)
musee mecanique (san francisco, ca) (2008)
haight street vintage shop (san francisco, ca) (2008)
house of vintage (portland, or) (multiple visits, 2009-2013)
voodoo doughnuts (portland, or) (multiple visits, 2010-2012)
archie mcphee's (seattle, wa) (multiple visits, 2011-2014)
ace hotel (palm springs, ca) (multiple visits, 2012-2014)
rayko photo center (san francisco, ca) (multiple visits, 2012-2015)
west egg cafe (atlanta, ga) (2011)
bon-ton (paris, france) (2013)
novelty shop (port townsend, wa) (2013)
gift shop (savannah, ga) (multiple visits, 2015-2016)
criminal records (atlanta, ga) (multiple visits, 2015-2018)
ace hotel (portland, or) (multiple visits, 2015-2018)
ace hotel (new york, ny) (2015)
the smith (new york, ny) (2016)
cargo (portland, or) (2018)
quimby's book store (chicago, il) (2018)
ace hotel (new orleans, la) (2018)

104/365

three things about today:

open windows
cats in sunspots
petals on the driveway, like confetti