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things I'm tired of doing:

eating soft foods
cleaning all the things
investing in friendships that are clearly dead
worrying about things I can't control
and, if I'm being completely honest, making lists

spring polaroid week

I've been participating in polaroid week for eleven years now. eleven years. which I find quite hard to believe. forever grateful for the inspiration and encouragement this community has provided over the years and will now say what I always say: polaroid week over on flickr feels like the last true bastion of authentic internet community. 

(above polaroids were some of my offerings to the group this past week)

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things that helped me survive this week:

the beginning of a small raised bed garden
spring polaroid week
cardinal sightings

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things I survived this week:

the painting of the bathroom
a tooth extraction
the internet

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things that can always be found in my refrigerator:

almond milk
maraschino cherries
cheese
like, a lot of cheese
oranges
so many oranges
an assortment of jams 
the magical box of magical condiment packets, fully organized
film

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currently inspired by:

serious prismatics
a library on a bicycle
zadie smith on alvin ailey
old fashioned street photography
old family photographs painted as large scale murals
polaroid week favorites
easter sunday joy

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things you hear in a modern dance class, part one:

your pelvis is a bowl
broaden your scapula
let the top of your head float
move in full sentences
let your weight take you
carve out space 
unfurl your spine

(maaaaaaan I miss it)

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it's spring polaroid week and so far, I've got three favorites:

these hands
these colors
this self-portrait 

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messages put in the plastic eggs today for the easter egg hunt:

"this is a magic egg, I'm serious"
"redeem this slip of paper for a magical penny from the magical jar of magical pennies"
"redeem this slip of paper for a magical condiment packet from the magical box of magical condiment packets"
"you are hereby required to give all your orange jelly beans to mom aka aunt andrea"
"hop like a bunny or forfeit your easter candy"
"if you are reading this slip of paper that means you are alive and that should be prize enough"
"for real though I will take you to sonic"

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things I cannot live without, part two:

ezra's laugh
oranges
God

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today:

watched it rain for hours
sat and talked with my dad
watched old video footage of my kids as children and it broke me

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small pleasures, part seven:

bicycle bells
whistling tea kettles
bundles of ranunculus
the moment the photobooth spits out your strip
tiny paper umbrellas
the last doughnut
blue hour

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things I miss, part two:

reading to my kids at bedtime
driving down the 101
summers at ADF
life before iphones
card catalogs

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things I'm doing this week:

painting walls white
cutting dogwood branches to bring inside
shooting for polaroid week
working on a new piece for uppercase
making cascarones for easter
hoarding orange jelly beans
opening all the windows, all the livelong day

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things I told myself today:

it's a gift to have laundry to do
it's a gift to have a body able to do the work laundry requires 
it's a gift to have access to a laundromat where clothes can by washed and dried
it's a gift to have a car that will take me to said laundromat and then back home again
it's a gift 
it's a gift
it's a gift

(I do believe this)
(even if it sounds like I don't)